So I have made hundreds if not thousands of Sales calls and nothing has panned out. The few proposals I’ve done were not accepted. It has been v frustrating and disappointing. One of the main probs is that the company I’m independently contracting out to has put off getting the Website done for like 5 months. Anytime I have someone interested in me getting them a group rate at a hotel or looking up convention space for them, they inevitably want to check out the company I represent by going to our Website, which we don’t have. It makes me look totally illegitimate! Nightmare. Also, over all of these months my boss hasn’t really been there. Originally we were going to have weekly Sales meetings, etc., and they never materialized. Last weekend I finally I contacted the owner of the company and we talked on Sunday. It tuns out my boss had agreed to be full-time, hands on, but she was never fully able to live up to that level of commitment. The company is basically foundering in the owner’s absence (she started the company but then got a huge consulting gig so she hired my boss to take over in her absence; she’ll be returning in less than a year). She told me she had actually authorized the expenditure for the Website a month and a half ago, but my boss was never able to get enough time together to work it out with the designer! Since I live in a cheap Chinatown tenement it wouldn’t take a lot for me to work from home full-time and still be able to pay my bills. I could get a very low number to her, if I needed to. Then, I would also have my commissions as things got better.
In light of these developments, the owner asked if I would be interested in taking over full time and driving the company forward, and if so, what would be my absolute BARE MINIMUM that I would require monetarily so as to not have to take outside temp jobs to get by (while I have taken an odd temp job here and there, they aren’t really rolling in and I am almost flat broke). I was pretty excited by this prospect! I love being in charge!
But here’s the caveat: even if I do decide to work for this company full time, and I throw out a ridiculously low number, she still may decided to put the company on hold until she comes back. She doesn’t want to spend the $10k for the Website if the company isn’t going anywhere right now. So even if I say yes she still may say no.
In other news, I also interviewed for a high-paying job at a Finance firm 2 weeks ago or so, and I am supposed to find out this week if I made it to the 2nd round of interviews. I would be absolutely miserable at this job, but it pays well and it has the best benefits of any company I’ve seen. Like throwback 1950′s benefits: 401K, Life , Health, Death & Dismemberment, and a few things I wasn’t even familiar with. But they told me in no uncertain terms that the main person I’d be working for is “difficult,” which translates to “raging asshole” in NYese. I would basically be working for a team of people, which is never fun. But I would take the job at this point b/c what else do I have? I have no Health benefits, and not a dime for retirement. God, financial planning sucks.
I am completely disappointed in how my life has turned out thus far. I have done a lot of great, fun things, but all I have to show for them are my memories and maybe a picture taken at a fabulous party here and there. I have ultimately been a complete failure, as far as planning for my future is concerned.
Posted on October 12, 2010
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